As in the here and now…not gifts as in yule. ( I’m a grinch this year..as far as christmas goes there will be none. i may do a bit of something for winter solstice but the “holidays” just tick me off this year so I’m refusing to be nice or cheerful about them)
I am okay for all those wondering where I dropped off to. Still slightly miserable since I haven’t heard anything from Vymn( husband) since he left the states.
His send off couldn’t have been more perfect and I know it really meant a lot to him to have the time with me that he did. We love eachother so deeply it is more than difficult to be apart but our sense of duty keeps us occupied and the knowledge that we will see eachother again keeps up going. If i think of days as minutes and months as hours…I only have 9 hours to go…that’s not really long is it?
Work has been keeping me busy and I’m about to declare my intentions to start the Oblaire program again, which I did not succed at completing last year. The requirements will be slightly different this year and I will be updating them and my progress as I go along.
I finally went to Ninjutsu last night after nearly a month of not going. It was really hard to get there.. one for the snow and two the emotional part of it all, but after braving it all it was really nice to be back. Everyone was glad to see me and beat me up a little so in turn I was glad to be back.
It’s still difficult. I don’t think I’ll fully relax or feel better until he’s home of course. but I’m still alive.