You can’t hold me back. I’m an Equestrian. I’m not afraid of anything. I walk with gods, I am a team with myths. I have faced fear and jumped over it. I comfort legends and become one with them thru quite truth, honesty and a steady heart. I am a centaur. We sing together in silence with movement and break barriers with strength neither have known before. I am a horsewoman. -Kitsune, 2010
I have been riding horses on and off since I was 12 and the instant my mind hooked on the idea of horses, I was gone. I have one incredible horsewoman to learn from and I’m amazed (I really shouldn’t be) at how much being a good equestrian is about you being a good person.
I can’t ask a horse to perform a movement unless I mean it. The horses I work with know the difference. BIG time. I can’t just give a half hearted signal/aid to walk and expect to get anything less then a pair of big brown eyes turned to look at me on it’s back and say ” did you say something?” I have to mean it…with every fiber, every strand of DNA. I have to be fully committed to it and know there will be a response, and it will be the one I asked for. This doesn’t mean being harsh or heavy handed with the horse at all.On the contrary, it demands the softest heart and soul filled to the brim with understanding and compassion…but it does make me realize how often I ask for things in real life and don’t really mean it.
In faery seership I find myself constantly editing my requests or explanations with phrases along the lines of ” only if you ( the good people or ancestral spirits) want to though.” Wanting other people to make my decisions for me, which is almost entirely contradictory to my basic personality!
Being a good equestrian doesn’t let me get away with giving myself a back door, so to speak. I have to own it, own myself in order for anything to work. I constantly find myself comparing my equine lessons with the faery teachings or other pagan ideas. We constantly speak of being centaurs in our lessons…being an extension of another being, being connected all the way down do the tips of your toes..paying attention and knowing at-one-ment. there is No doubt or fear. It is Zen and it is FUN! I am my most relaxed, most natural, most honest self with horses. I can’t lie and neither can they when I’m fully engaged in the process. This is a big lesson I try to carry over into everything in my life, especially work with the other world.