I have come to decide thatBadbh ,Nemon/Fea, and Macha – The Mór Rígan (the Great Queen) is motivating me.
With the vision they revealed to me Fea’s dark hand in my life. Badbh is stirring my blood with anger and bigotry. Nemon whispers in my ear the dark truths I have never faced and Macha calls me to furious justice. The Mór Rígan calls me to claim my right Sovereignty.
Sovereignty is freedom from external controls and is expressed as the moral or natural right of a person to be the exclusive controller of their own body and life.
It is more than right to food, shelter, clothing, Love, Life, Liberty or the Pursuit of Happiness ( although these are all very fine things).
To me, seeking Sovereignty is to seek the Governer, the Just Ruler, within my own self and accept them.
It is seeking a personal constitution, your own boundries and limitations, personal war and peace treaties etc. The macrocosm withing microcosm, The dreamer within the Dream.
My goal is to wake MY dreamer, rouse her from her slumber of laziness or fear and awaken her to action.
If I am interpreting the Mór Rígan‘s vision correctly this process will not go easy for me, it will be terrifying and beautiful. Dark but illuminating. It is more than some dark obsession, some gothic ploy at life’s pity. This time I choose the dark forests not to hide me but to strip me bare of all my illusions. To truly discover the measure of myself. I walk with the moon to show me different light and to face fear, run with fear, learn from fear and fury. The Fox and Crow guide me now, both calm studies of hidden ways.
It seems I was not ready for Brighid’s hammer to smooth me out, though I do not abandon her or Epona.
Once again I am the daughter of two swords and fall into a battle for myself. Finally.