3/18

I meditated yesterday for 5 minutes to a simple body  relaxing guided meditation. I also re-committed myself with my vow.

I had the recent opportunity to be reminded I am worthy and meant for this work for myself and others( something I struggle with). I’ve had a dear friend reach out to me for assistance in finding calm in his life after a difficult break-up. Constructing ritual, recording meditation, researching cherished teachers, knowing intuitively what was needed was a wonderful blessing.

I saw that I hadn’t worked on myself, worked within paganism for so long…why was I avoiding this element of my life I enjoy so much? I always found mundane things to keep me busy. Even before I knew much about the path people came to me. I am not saying this in an egotistical way at all. For better or worse, I’ve been a leader or at least the first in line to face to unknown. Spearheading this USUPA was a great opportunity. I had the inner organization and the outer work ethic to make it work. It was a challenge and never easy but I saw what pieces, people and events needed  to go where and made it fit. Unfortunately without me, it wasn’t right- even though we tried. I think this made me falter a little. I lost confidence in my ability…if something I created can’t work without me did I really create it? Was it worth it?

I always feel much better when I take time to be quite, to be at the feet of the shining ones, the ancestors, the dear spirits. It is a right relationship that I have been flat out avoiding.  I felt the familiar, calm embrace of meditation. I had to sit my cushions up against the wall since my body is so tired. In my life I was also recently reminded of the ADF motto…” Why not excellence?” well, hell WHY not?! Why was I being lame about claiming and working towards excellence?!

I was blessed with a moment where I could see my life from a  little higher up. I saw I wasn’t treating my one and only body well, I wasn’t eating right, I wasn’t connecting with the things in my life that matter, I was ignoring my passions. I thought to myself, ” I’ve got to fix this!”

So I found Nerd Fitness from a friend, I went back to yoga each morning at a beautiful studio in town, I researched and am making steps towards eating Paleo and I returned to the Dedicant’s path. I scheduled out time. I made a google calender. I got up earlier- and anyone who knows me knows that this is HUGE. My husband agreed to work by my side as well, which is also huge since he has limited time as well working on his master’s degree. But we’re in this, our new lifestyle and our life, together. It’s great to feel balanced, supported, and loved ( not that he wasn’t-ya’ll know how life gets).

The omen I pulled for 3/18 was the King of Pentacles. Once again this deck and the spirit of tarot never fail to be spot on.

The King of Pentacles in your reading

Your business instinct demands from you that you are finally put in some energy. Make use of your knowledge and research new opportunities or things that you don’t know. There is work to do. You’re almost finished with your project but a lot still needs to be done. When you work now you’ll have the chance to finish some things that you have been procrastinating.

From your experience in life you’re able to understand people. You know what their plan is and keep that in mind. You are a fighter, but you won’t play out other people against each other. You can be characterized as a stayer and you don’t give up until you’re finished. From that fighters mentality you are probably competition to others. Your mercantilism will take you far. Use it.

If you are at a point to pay a lot of money for please know that this is the right moment. Don’t guess.. but know. Are you sure you will get your money back when it isn’t what you expected? Depending the position of this card you have to be prepared to loose it even though the profits are steep. Do your research if there aren’t better ways to earn money.

This is the card that asks from you to start work. The time to be lazy is really over. Give yourself a kick in the butt and finish the job that has been waiting for so long.

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